Tonight’s Reason to Dance

This has been a lame week to say the least.  I’ve eaten crap and sat on the couch.  I haven’t wanted to do anything for reasons I’ll explain later.

Right now, I have a reason to dance.

I have nothing to do tonight so I decided to catch up on some DVR shows.  My DVR was showing 90% full and I would hate for Days of Our Lives and The Martha Stewart show to not be recorded next week so I felt it was time to clean things up.

I started with watching the SNL with Daniel Radcliffe.  Very funny, he’s awesome.  Then I moved on to yesterday’s Days of Our Lives since I was half through it anyway.  Finally, I decided to catch up on some Martha.  I adore Martha Stewart and I watch all of her shows.  Currently, I’m watching Monday’s episode with make up expert Bobbi Brown.  Martha tweeted last week that she would be having the expert on her show and is looking for questions.  I have seen many shows explaining how to clean make up brushes but I never paid much attention so I decided to ask.  Never in a million years would I have dreamed that out of all of her thousands of Facebook and Twitter followers that I would have been chosen.

Bobbi Brown started putting lipstick on an audience member and Martha turned to some woman that works with her holding a lap top and asks for the next Facebook or Twitter question and this woman says, “Ruby Fizzle (@RbyFzzl) asks ‘How do you properly clean and care for make up brushes?’”  THAT’S ME!  I’M RUBY FIZZLE!!!!  I can’t stop jumping and dancing and squealing like a teenage girl watching Justin Bieber live in concert!

And that’s tonight’s reason to dance!

Log for January 15, 2012

Exercise:

Nothing.  Genevieve has had a fever since yesterday morning.  We were literally up all night.  We went to the pediatricians office.  No time or energy for working out.

Food:

Breakfast – 2 Super Sonic Breakfast Burritos.  UGH!  Really not a good choice but it was on our way back from the pediatricians office and we needed the energy to get us through Target and getting home.

Lunch – nothing.  I didn’t really mean to skip it but breakfast kept me full through dinner

Dinner – We went to Hayashi’s for dinner for our nephew’s birthday.  I had a bento box which consisted of 6 pieces of sashimi, some tempura shrimp and veggies, a huge piece of salmon, and three big scallops.  Oh man was it good!

Snacks – nothing.

 

Oh what a day.  I am so drained I barely have the energy to type.  After an incredibly long night with Genevieve having nightmares and feverish fits I called the pediatrician as soon as the office opened at 8:30 this morning.  Thank God for weekend hours!  They had to take a blood count which came back normal.  Her right ear was a bit red so we’re assuming it is an ear infection.  Later I noticed that she kept messing with her nose and considering how congested she’s been I’m pretty sure it’s more of a sinus infection.  Either way we have some amoxicillin to knock whatever it is out.  She’s asleep now and I’m hoping she stays asleep long enough for me to get an hour or two in.

First Fever

I can’t believe we’ve made it this far.  Genevieve is 16.5 months old and has never really had a fever before today.  It has never failed that every time she gets shots she gets a bit of a fever the next morning but  it disappears quickly.  Today has been a bad one though and it’s made for a very nervous mama.

When she woke up this morning she felt very warm.  I thought it was maybe from the heater being too high so we got up and had some water and sat for a few minutes.  I decided to check her temperature after about 30 minutes of her still feeling hot. 100.2.  Really not bad, just a tiny fever.  I gave her some baby Motrin and within an hour we were back to normal. Breakfast, play, then nap time came and she seemed pretty normal.  When she woke up from her nap she was back to feeling hot again.  I picked her up and sat down in the rocking chair and she fell back asleep instantly.  I sat and rocked her for about 40 minutes.  When she woke up again I took her temp and it was only slightly higher at 100.9.

We went on through our day with her acting pretty normal after another dose of baby Motrin kicked in.  We even met some of Sebastian’s out-of-town friends for sushi and Genevieve was pretty happy throughout.  When we got home I fed her, changed her, played with her, all like normal.  Then she felt hot again.  Just before bed I took her temperature and it was at 102.2.  Now, I know it’s still not high enough to cause panic but it’s causing panic.  First thing I do is look up “toddlers with fever” on Google.  Then “symptoms of meningitis.”  I think we safe from that but being that this is our very first fever I, of course, am running all the worst case scenarios in my head.  If she’s still running a fever in the morning we’ll be calling the pediatrician to see where to go from here.

I’m not looking forward to the rest of the night.  I’m sure it will be a long one.  Plus, I still have to teach Sunday School in the morning!

A Bad Few Days

Oh man, what have I done?  I haven’t been tracking my calories or working out as much as I should.  It started with lack of sleep, then “that time of the month” which I almost forgot about, and today was just pure laziness.  Three days of crap.  I’m set for a return tomorrow though.  A return to eating right and working out.

Last night was the last straw for me.  Well, I suppose it was this morning.  Genevieve decided at 5am this morning that she wanted me to stand over her while she slept.  After 30 minutes of doing it and thinking she was good and asleep I crept back into my bed.  Then the crying commenced.  My husband reached over and rubbed my back and said to just let her cry, he’d get up in a few minutes.  When he did go in there to begin the day with her he gave her a hug while she was still in the crib and she then lay herself back down and rolled over like she was going back to sleep.  Sebastian was stunned.  He didn’t know what to do.  He actually tried to get her to get up but she wouldn’t.  She wanted to sleep.  So he sat down in the rocker across her room.  Then she got up crying again.  So I know that she just doesn’t want to be alone.  Well kid, too bad.  Mama is tired, I know that you can sit yourself back down and go back to sleep but you just don’t want to.

She will sleep or she will cry tonight.

Now here comes the cry it out hate mail.  Go one.  You know you can’t resist.

Fail of a Day

My poor Genevieve is getting three or four molars at once.  I can’t imagine how much that must suck for her.  For me, this means lack of sleep time!  She was up at 4:15 this morning and though I got her back down she was up again… and again… and again.  This isn’t the kind of waking up we can just ignore and let her fall back asleep.  This is screaming at the top her lungs because she’s in pain waking up.  I changed her diaper the first time, gave her Orajel the second, and motrin the third.

Between the wake ups I was on the brink of falling asleep again when she got back up.  I still forced myself at of bed a little after 6am and did a small work out.  I didn’t do nearly as much as I usually would have but I was too exhausted.  I did sit ups then I sat there and nearly fell back asleep sitting up.  I’d start doing push ups then lay down and get drowsy.  It was kind of ridiculous.

My eating wasn’t great either.  It started out pretty good but went downhill.  I didn’t eat anything really bad for me but I just ate too much.  As I’m typing this I’m seriously considering getting a third helping of frozen grapes.  (By the way, if you haven’t eaten frozen grapes you have missed out on one of life’s greatest joys!)

Tomorrow is a new day.  I’m getting ready to get to bed now so I can get plenty of sleep even if we have another bad night.  Usually I’d get very discouraged by one bad day but I refuse to.  Determination is a great feeling!

Log for January 8, 2012

Exercise:

I took the day off.  My body badly needed one after pushing myself for 6 days.

Food:

Breakfast – apple cinnamon oatmeal made with 2% milk

Lunch – Veggie Omelet from Village Inn with Multigrain Pancakes (Didn’t finish the pancakes because I was full.  They are so good!)

Dinner – Homemade (by my mother-in-law) chicken and dumplings, mashed sweet potatoes, green beans, side salad with vinaigrette dressing, green tea

Desert – small slice of cheesecake (serving size was 1/4 of the cheesecake, it was a small one to begin with, I only ate 1/8 of it!)

 

Well I weighed myself again this morning because I really want Sunday to be my weigh in day as it is going to be my no exercise day.  I actually went from 217 to 211.  So, instead of the 4 pounds I thought it was when I weighed myself yesterday afternoon, I actually lost 6 pounds!  Pardon my french but FUCK YEAH!!!!!

Progress and Tests

I couldn’t take it any longer.  I had to check the scale.  I didn’t expect much considering I’ve been unable to cardio and I had one terrible dinner when I went to a Mexican restaurant with my friends.  Somehow though, I lost four pounds!  The only conclusion I can make is that I went from eating crap and sitting on my ass to eating well and moving some and my body reacted.  I know it’s a crazy fluke but I feel really great about it!  So I’m down to 213 from 217.  I think the last time I weighed myself was a week and a half ago but I honestly can’t remember.

I had my first real test of my commitment today.  We went to Schlotzsky’s for lunch so I went for the grilled chicken caesar salad.  I thought it would be perfect.  It comes out and it’s covered in croutons and four bread sticks with cheese and pesto.  Oh Lord what did I order?!  I put the amazingly delicious looking bread sticks aside and ate around the croutons.  The dressing came on the side so I drizzled just a bit on, a bit more later.  I ate slowly and put my fork down between bites.  Somehow, I was full by the time I got to the bottom of that bowl.  I didn’t touch the crouton or the bread and I only had unsweetened tea and a few sips of raspberry tea to drink.  I know it may not seem like much to some people but this is huge for me!  There have been times I bought two Big Macs and ate them in my car.

I’m excited to see what will happen when my ankle heals and I can start doing some cardio.  I’m eager to get to walking and using the elliptical at the gym and starting some awesome DVDs.

Log for January 5, 2012

Exercise:

15 lunges, 30 second plank

Food:

Breakfast – apples and cinnamon oatmeal made with 2% milk

Lunch – chicken Asian noodle nut thing I made the night before.  It was kind of like Pad Thai and really yummy

Dinner – homemade baked potato soup

Snacks – Blue Diamond Almonds, 2 Andes mints, banana

 

I wanted to binge so badly yesterday.  The afternoon seemed to drag on, Genevieve wasn’t being cooperative, I was mad at the mail man for messing up again (I don’t think I’ll ever get my Harry Potter via Netflix).  I wanted to stuff my face.  I settled for a banana and water.  When that didn’t help I just waited and then had some almonds.  I eat the almonds pretty slowly and they usually fill me up.  Finally, I gave in and had 2 Andes mints which are only 25 calories each so I don’t feel too guilty for it.  I was also so sore yesterday that I didn’t move as much as I could have.  My thighs are killing me!

Vacation and Goals

I have no intention in turning this blog into a weight loss blog but this is what’s on my mind lately.  I promise, there will still be plenty of Genevieve talk!

My husband is going to Austin in a few months for some training and competition.  Austin is my favorite city.  I nearly moved there in my single days and I wouldn’t give it a second thought if my husband randomly came to me and said let’s go.  I was really looking forward to it but then yesterday morning my husband brought up a good point.  He’s will be gone by 7am every morning and not come back until 6pm then will need to get plenty of rest.  There is absolutely no point in Genevieve and I going.  Yes, I could go out and about without him but the few friends I have there will be working or wanting to go out and I can’t go out with baby in tow.

So, we decided to plan a family vacation instead.  But where shall we go?  San Francisco as hard enough to get around without having a baby.  Austin would be ok but there’s not a lot of baby friendly activities we can think of.  Definitely somewhere we haven’t been before then.  Disney is out, Genevieve wouldn’t remember it or be able to do much, so we’ll wait for her fourth birthday.  AH!  Erika is graduating in May and I never get to see her and she still hasn’t seen the baby and I’ve never been to Corpus Christi and I love the beach and I wanna go!  YES!

Ok, I’m very excited about this.  Erika and I have been best friends since we were 13 years old.  She moved away from El Paso with her family when we were 14.  We started out writing each other letters to keep in touch.  Sometimes our moms would let us call each other and talk long distance for about 20 minutes or so.  Then came e-mail, cell phones, text messages and Skype!  We have actually only seen each other 4 times since she’s (I went to visit, she drove through on her way to or from Vegas, her wedding, my wedding) but somehow we’ve managed to stay pretty close.  I send her pictures of Genevieve weekly, we Skyped once and she got to see her, but that’s it.

 

So on to my goals…

February goal:  I bought a new dress for Valentine’s Day.  It’s a size 16, I now wear  size 18.  I tried it on and it was ok but it leaves nothing to the imagination.  My goal is to have this dress fit right for a date.

April goal:  My birthday is in April.  I would absolutely love to wear my favorite shirt that has become quite small on me by the time I turn 29 (gulp).

May goal:  Going to the beach.  Obviously I won’t wear a bikini but I would like to buy a really cute bathing suit that fits correctly.  The one I have now is a perfect fit, I think I must have stretched it somehow since I bought it.  I would love to have to buy a new one, preferable black with white polka dots.

August goal:  By the time Genevieve is 2 years old and I (hopefully) get ready to go back to school I want to weigh at or around 180 pounds, if not smaller.  I’m now at 217 so that would be a loss of 37 pounds.  I want to do this slow and steady and this gives me over 8 months (her birthday is the 31st) to do so.  I think that’s reasonable.

End of year goal:  I want to know that I am getting to my goal weight.  I have a total of 67 pounds to lose to get to 150 (what I weighed my senior year of high school) and I’m not sure if I can do it in 1 year.  It took longer than that to put it on so I’m assuming it will take a while to get it off.

Goal for my 30th birthday:  Oh God, I only have a little over a year before I turn 30.  I never thought it would bother me but it does, oh it does.  By the day I turn 30 I want to weigh 150.

 

I’ve really thought about these and I think they’re realistic and I think it’s a healthy pace.

Log for January 3, 2012

Exercise:

60 crunches, 20 squats, 10 second wall sit (lame but after the first part of the work out it’s all I could do)

Food:

Breakfast – apple cinnamon oatmeal with blueberries made with 2% milk

Lunch – 11 chicken nuggets and BBQ sauce

Dinner – Plum-Marinated Chicken with Balsamic Roasted Carrots and Baked Potatoes with Chipotle Butter (mama got a new cook book)

Snacks – almonds, 2 Andes thin mints

Water intake:

6 glasses

 

Today was awesome.  I got up early (even after Genevieve decided to get up three times at night) to work out a bit, I ate well, I didn’t binge, and I drank a lot more water than I usually do!  I got an awesome new cookbook called Robin Rescues Dinner by Robin Miller and it’s pretty freaking awesome.  It’s perfect for the busy cook or the lazy cook (ME) to get dinner done at least three times a week.  For instance, tonight’s meal was chicken and baked potatoes but I cooked enough chicken for tomorrow’s chicken dish and enough potatoes for Thursday’s baked potato soup.  This helps out so much on fussy days with Genevieve.  There are days I just call my husband and tell him to pick something up for dinner on his way home from work because I don’t want to listen to Genevieve stand right outside the kitchen crying.  With this method of cooking I at least cut back on my prep time thus leaving more time for playing!